I woke up today feeling rested and ready for the week ahead. What a difference a day makes.
As I was getting ready to walk out the door I heard something on the radio I took notice of from a 'that's interesting' point of view, I had no idea it would come back to be my reality 12 hours later. The DJ said today is the biggest break up day of the year.
I guess people break up today so they don't have to deal with all the holidays. I laughed a little to myself, and thought a bit about Mr. Wonderful who had a policy of not starting to date someone new between Thanksgiving and Valentine's Day.
If you think about it, it's a really good idea. You don't have to worry about all the awkward holidays when you barely know each other. After he explained his theory I completely understood although I could never really see myself living my life by it.
After work I got a call from my brother, then call waiting kicked from the wine guy so I clicked over, knowing I would be a while with my brother.
He didn't seem quite right and I was a bit concerned. I asked if I could call him back later and he agreed. After about an hour on the phone with my brother we said goodbye and I called the wine guy back.
I knew it wasn't good when he was speechless after answering the phone. The dreaded lines 'I don't know how to say this... so I'm just going to say it' came out of his mouth and I knew it was heading south in a hurry.
He told me he wasn't the boyfriend/relationship guy right now. I said it was ok, I wasn't exactly sure where I was at either, and i think he was a bit surprised at how well I was taking it.
In fact I was sitting there on the phone half stunned... 'why is he breaking up with me? I should be breaking up with him?' The whole thing was kind of crazy, but at least I figured it must be the right thing to do... I guess he was just the one with the cajones to make it happen.
He went on to say he really feels like he needs to be alone right now to get his life back on track and I totally get it, which I told him. Whether it was some underlying thought that this just wasn't quite right... or he needs time to himself... I've been there.
Poor guy, I feel badly for him. He was so anxious and nervous about it all and then I ended up unknowingly making him wait an extra hour to give me the news. There's nothing worse than having something to get off your chest, working up the nerve to do it and then having to wait... it's absolutely excruciating.
In the middle of the conversation he was spent, he had said his peace and he didn't have anywhere else to go so he just stopped and said 'uh ok... you talk now'. I laughed, even in the break up he is making me laugh out loud, something I will definitely miss.
There was a lot of laughing on my end, because he's a funny guy, and I didn't want him to feel bad, especially because I wasn't quite sure how I felt about the relationship. So i didn't want it to be a difficult conversation, it's difficult enough by nature, why make it worse with drama?
Am I going to miss him? Sure, he's a cool guy, who makes me laugh out loud (which very few people do), and I enjoyed hanging out with him, but where was it going beyond that? I wasn't sure, but I was willing to hang out and see.
I'm not going to lie, the rejection is never easy, but at least I wasn't head over heels gaga. My cautious nature paid off today.
After i got off the phone I immediately started texting the BFF, the Coffee Fairy and Perky. I had to share what had just happened, and I also needed to find someone to go to an event with me on Wednesday night.
They all started in with the usual words of girlfriend encouragement. 'he's a jerk! what happened? you deserve better!' but I calmly explained to them what happened and I think I talked most of them off the ledge... at least I hope!
The wine guy isn't bad guy, the timing is just off, and you can't do anything about timing.
The BFF is a big believer in timing. She met her fiancee 12 years ago and nothing happened, they met again a few years ago and voila.... two happy people in love. She was the one who made me realize I just turned into a statistic!
I told her about 'breakup day' and she said 'holy crap your a statistic!' How did I make it this far along in my life and I've never been affected by this crazy phenomenon known as the holiday breakup?? Wow that's a first!
I didn't get close enough to get hurt this time, but the rejection is never easy. If there is one thing I have learned that I have to believe it is is... that as one door closes another opens.
I know it's cliche but if I didn't believe it I would be no where right now.
After the call I started thinking... it's on for the newest adventure. This is no way so 'stare down 40!!"
The reason my brother called was to tell me Jimmy Buffett is playing a concert in Australia.
We flew to the Caribbean to see him a few years ago so if we could find some cheap airfare we could be on our way 'down under' for another concert adventure.
He knows if anyone will find a way to get there, it's me. When I'm on a mission I can't be stopped, and this may be my latest challenge.
It's exhilarating thinking about a trip of that magnitude. I absolutely love traveling and the adventure of travel, so maybe I need to do this?
Of course I can't afford it but who cares?? Being responsible never got anyone very much fun in life so who knows what may be in store in the next 2 months.
Jimmy Buffett does cure all in my world.
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