Day 156: Amazing transformation!

So this is it, this is what I've been waiting for since Friday... the end of my 48 hours of leadership training.

Where will it lead? What will I get out of it?

When I woke up and went to class I had no idea what was in store. When they told us what we would be doing for the day my heart skipped a beat for a minute, but it wasn't anything I hadn't encountered in the past 2 days so I figured somehow I would make it through.... and I did.

I was absolutely amazed at what I was able to accomplish through this experience. If you had told me Friday night, the things I would be doing today I would have called you a liar, but it absolutely happened.

I'm a bad ass and I'm going to let people know it! Politely and nicely of course because that's my nature, but I proved a lot of things to myself during the past 2 days.

I couldn't have done it without the support of my fabulous teammates and some of the most amazing, talented, caring and compassionate trainers I have ever come across.

What an amazing journey. Despite being completely exhausted physically and mentally I feel amazing! I feel empowered, I feel happy, relaxed, and I feel I've really let go of a lot of what has been weighing me down for years and years.

I am transformed! This is something I've known I've needed to do and something I've wanted to do for years, but somehow couldn't figure out on my own. I still have no idea how they did it, but I'm glad they did.

All I wanted to do was go home and put on my pj's and sleep but my day wasn't over.

The Jet Setter is in town from New York for a mere 2 days and I have to see her. She's always jetting across the globe to some fantastic location, and has about a dozen balls in the air so catching up is difficult.... catching up in person is nearly impossible.

I knew it was going to be a difficult evening, because she is full of energy and I was tapped out but she is a good friend and I wouldn't miss seeing her when she's in town.

Adding to the excitement, she was staying with a friend who has 4 children. I walked into the house and immediately gave her friend a hug, I met her boyfriend, and yes, he too received a hug.

After that another guy showed up... yes... another hug. It was so unlike me, but I made a promise to myself after my training that I would hug everyone and I was taking it to heart.

We were celebrating the Jet Setter being in town, but also her birthday. I don't know whether it was the cookies, the jello or perhaps some new energy I was exuding but the kids wouldn't leave me alone.

One was in my lap, another one next to me, one wanted to take her picture with me. They were trying on my shoes, my jacket, you name it.

At one point one of the girls actually held onto my leg and wouldn't let go. The Jet Setter asked what in the world I may have been talking about during my training... 'are you sure you didn't say anything about a family? or kids?'

I quickly replied with 'oh yeah, those words never came out of my mouth' but I they did say that people important to my life and my plans would start coming up to me because I now have an open heart.

Sure, it couldn't be a hot single guy, instead it's a child latched on to my leg but I'll take what I can get at this point.... baby steps.

We had a low key evening hanging out at the house, and heading to a local outdoor watering hole for a few drinks.

During an intermission with the live (1 man) band I heard my good friend Jimmy Buffett playing. It was his Christmas album I recognized it immediately, and I said 'this is perfect! it's like the night was meant for me', even though it was my friends celebration.

What an amazing day, capped off by time with good friends. I couldn't have asked for anything better.