There is no more putting it off, I need to do my self-appraisal for my annual review.
I told my boss I would be finished when he got back from his corporate retreat this week, but I needed a few more details in order to finish.
He agreed and then asked if we could meet tomorrow before my vacation.
Great.. The last few times this has happened to me my bosses gave me my critiques before a vacation because they knew they could bash me and then not have to deal with me for a week while i stewed somewhere else.... so that is of course in the back of my brain.
I really hope that doesn't happen this time. I know it's a long shot but the PTSD is stuck in my brain and it's hard to turn that switch sometimes.
Sunshine is about to kill me because I keep getting anxious about it. She brought up a very good point. The boss always comes out and asks for my opinion on a lot of topics which in turn means he values my opinion. I had to agree with her, even though I hadn't noticed the trend.
Ok, that made me feel better. My previous boss thought I was a slow producer, and didn't value anything I said. Talk about killing your self worth. This is what I do for a living, and I have always been praised for my work up until I I started working for her.
it's nice to be appreciated again and feel like I do make a difference, or at least that's what I hope will happen.
It's amazing what a difference one person can make in your attitude.
Even though I'm pretty sure I'm in his good graces, I still feel the need to defend myself in the appraisal. Whatever... it's not like they are handing out any raises so I don't know why I care.
Once at home it was time to break open a bottle of wine and get to work with all the finishing touches. It didn't work very well. I managed to get the document open and stare at it a while but that was about it.
I was more interested in chitty chatting on the phone and watching tv, so that is what I did, and its much better for my psyche.
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