Day 219: Preparing for the big day

For the first time in weeks I finally managed to sleep in.

I considered getting up early and going for a hike, but I needed some real down time today.

I have a lot of stuff to do around the house, granted it's boring stuff, but it needs to be done... wash the dishes, do some laundry, clean the house... ugh.

Besides I have to get ready for tomorrow.

Based off the timing of the tea leaf reader's prediction, Prince Charming is coming in 61 days, which is tomorrow.

I've said it before, but I will say it again. I'm not holding a lot of stock in the fact that it will happen tomorrow.

I think she is right, and it will happen sometime soon, but nailing down the exact day seems a little freaky to me.

Now if it actually happens tomorrow I will be a believer for life, but until then I've definitely got a wait and see attitude about it.

I have to say it's perfect timing too. I never break out but I currently have about 3 zits on my face.

I suspect a few culprits, the 7 layer dip facial... or maybe it was the waxing... or perhaps just hormones.

I thought it was going to be a good thing to get my skin glowing for the big day but maybe I should have put a little more thought into it.

Somehow getting rid of teh peach fuzz on my upper lip seemed like a good idea when I was in the facial but I'm not sure I would have agreed knowing the payoff would be a few zits. It's a tough call at this point.

So tonight here I sit, enjoying a glass of red wine, obsessing about my zits and wondering what the future might hold for me.

I have to say it's a little frightening, knowing something is going to happen but not knowing when, who, or how.

Not frightening in a scary I think he's going to kill me way, but more in a I don't have control way.

I kind of like my life right now, adding someone into it full time would be a bit of a chore.

But isn't that how and when it always happens? It always has in my life.

When I'm super content and everything is falling into place, the world seems to throw me a curveball.

I guess there's nothing I can do about it, I need to let to and let the universe do it's work.

I think I'll feel a lot better after I get through tomorrow. It's like a cloud that's been hovering over me for the past 2 months, lurking in the back of my brain.

Every guy I've met I've wondered about, it will be nice to just get through it and stop thinking about it.

That is... if it doesn't happen.

Or maybe I need to go back to her for the full length reading. No I'm sure that would cause me to obsess waaaay too much. I just need to let it go... but that doesn't mean I will :)