Day 212: Midlife crisis or do I need a vacation?

I want to run away.

It started in Vegas and it's continuing today. I feel trapped in my job, my house and my other responsibilities.

I don't want to go away forever, just for a little while.

Dropping off the face of the planet for a few days has never sounded so good to me.

But unfortunately it seems like there is always something going on that won't allow me to do it.

I had hoped to take a day off this week, but that's not going to work. Corporate is coming to town the middle of the week, and my boss wants me to help with intern interviews at the end of the week.

I can't turn down the offer to interview the interns, because they are an integral part of what we do, and it looks good on a resume.

So here I am stuck again without being able to take a day off for my sanity.

Sure I could just call in sick, but I'm too honest, and I couldn't do it.

Sometimes being a responsible adult really absolutely sucks. And I'm not even a real adult! I don't have kids or a husband, it's just me a job, and 2 cats. That would be a breeze for most people.

So maybe it's a midlife crisis. Laugh all you want, 39 could be middle aged. People die at 78 all the time.

I'm hoping I've got a few more years left in me beyond that, but I don't know. How do you know if you're going through a midlife crisis or you just need a vacation?

I did look at sports cars online the other day. Ok... so I looked at Mustangs, which is what I currently drive, because my car is 11 years old and has been in the shop a lot recently and I'm weighing my options.

So I guess that doesn't count.

This weekend has been a bit like a vacation for me. I've been secluded in my house, with the exception of the computer shopping spree, relaxing, sleeping in, and pretty much doing nothing, but somehow it doesn't seem to be working.

I want to be away from everything, with no one to worry about but myself and spilling my margarita, is that too much to ask?

Evidently it is at this stage of the game. I'm just going to have to ride it out for a few months to get through the holidays and hope to take an amazing vacation at the beginning of next year.