Day 201: Two worlds collide

Today my two worlds collided, my work world and my personal world.

When I first met the wine guy I told him I would give him a tour of the station, and he took me up on the offer.

As the day arrived and the time grew closer, I grew increasingly nervous. Mr. Wonderful never even made it past the parking garage at my work, and a few very small work gatherings. I think I tried to protect him as best I could. We're kind of a bunch of circus freaks.

But I decided to offer up the tour anyway, because somewhere along the way someone suggested I have the boys I'm dating see me 'in action' at work.

They said I should do that because most people would consider my job impressive. I suppose I can see that side of things, but to me it's just the job I love to do.

I told the Coffee Fairy he was coming and to let me know when he arrived.

I don't know why I thought it would be a good idea to merge my two worlds. It stresses me out and then I get super nervous. Sharing a piece of my life should not be this hard or cause so much anxiety!

I just hate that people may be judging me or talking about me, but I did hear once that you're full of yourself if you think people are thinking about you that much. But I don't think the person who coined that phrase ever worked at a tv station!

After the show I took him into the studio for a quick tour. He was running around like a kid in a candy store, jumping behind the sets, and envisioning funny on air scenarios.

Giggles was laughing at everything (because that's pretty much what she does) but it was funny. The more she laughed the more he goofed off.

At that moment I kept thinking of my favorite phrase from my mother 'if you think they every grow up you're sadly mistaken.'

Yes, mother dear... you are right once again.

We went to lunch and on the way back to work I checked my phone. I had a message from work, and one from the Cowboy, asking me out for Saturday.

I didn't quite know what to do. He's such a nice guy, and young. He needs a nice girl. I need to find a way to let him down easy, but I couldn't quite find the right words.

When I returned to work Giggles was there to interrogate me. 'So do you have something going on with that guy? Is he more than your friend?'

'You sound like my mom!' I said. I guess I should have thought that statement through before saying it. Never tell a 25 year old girl she sounds like your 76 year old mother.

I filled her in on a few details, enough to appease her, and we continued our afternoon.

Later that day my director said 'what's going on with you? the cowboy yesterday, the wine guy today, your doing a lot of dating'

Thanks for bringing it to my attention. I do feel like I'm doing a lot of dating and it's a bit much juggling for me.

I can't go from 0 to 60 in 3 seconds.... I need to ease into this new world. So now all I have to do is find a good way to let the Cowboy down in 160 characters or less... (sigh)