Day 288: Is God the answer to dating success?

I don't know if God is the answer to my dating success or failure, but it can't hurt to try.

I went to church today with one of my friends, Perky. It's been quite a while since I went.

Mr. Wonderful and I would go, and then after he passed away everytime I walked through the door it was a constant and very emotional reminder.

It has gotten better with time, and now I do feel like I can go without breaking into tears. So when Perky texted yesterday asking if I wanted to go I thought it would be a good idea.

Actually lunch afterward is really what sold me, but I thought a little church wouldn't hurt me.

It's funny how one message can speak to so many people with such different messages.

As we sat there and listened to the pastor talk being fulfilled we each had different thoughts.

The message was... whatever it is is you're searching for will not leave you feeling fulfilled, God is the only way to fill that void in your heart.

He mentioned several different things, some of them were material (cars, homes, clothes, etc.), but he also mentioned love and a family.

Perky has been torn over whether to buy a Louis Vuitton purse.

Her husband said she should, because it would command respect when she walked into a room for a business deal, but she is a little more practical and couldn't quite commit to it.

So her message was definitely coming from a shopping and material standpoint.

One of the quotes he said that spoke to me was 'most of us are bumbling around looking for something we think will leave us fulfilled'.

That's exactly how I've been feeling the last few weeks. Like I'm just bumping into random guys and trying them on for size hoping one of them will work.

Maybe finding God is the solution. When I found Mr. Wonderful I was really very content with my life.

I was in love with my job, loved my life outside of work, everything was great. I didn't feel like I needed anything else.

In fact adding something else into the mix seemed like it was going to disrupt the flow, and it did, but it was worth it.

I don't remember if I was going to church at the time or not, but I should give it a shot now.

It can't hurt. It's better than picking up a guy at the bar. That hasn't really worked out for me all that well, unless you count finding guys in their 20's. Then it's perfect!

Church might actually be the place to find a quality guy who isn't a total jackwad.

I think they categorize the groups by age so I wouldn't have to worry about getting involved with a 20-something, if I'm in the 30-something group.

But I don't want to end up with someone who is a fuddy duddy. Not that people who go to church can't be fun, but I'm not sure if its the perfect fit for me.

When I'm there I feel a little out of place, like I'm the heathen in the group that everyone is looking at with a sideways glance.

I suppose the looks wouldn't be any different than the ones I get when I tell people I went out with a 24 year old, or when I tell the 24 year old's I'm not going to sleep with them.

By the end of our church, lunch, and shopping date Perky decided against buying the LV at least for now, and I'm considering going to church more often but not to find a date.